I'm a bit of a ticking time bomb right now, hooked up to chemo drugs and not knowing when I might start puking. I'm also hooked up to lots of wires, a catheter and an oxygen monitor on my pointer finger, so I can only type with my middle finger. But I'm not flipping anyone off at all. On the contrary, I am happy.
Wheeeee, here we go. They put me under for the bone marrow aspiration and I have to wonder why we don't get put under for more unpleasant things. It's awesome. I was telling Nadir all the words in Hebrew that I now know (a short list) and then they were telling me it was over. Hussein made me a sandwich of cottage cheese, tomatoes and cucumber (delicious) and now I'm watching these drugs drip into me like bullets to kill the MS. (I love you chemo drugs.)
Other than that I am dizzy, sleepy, thirsty. I miss home but I am in this.
Xo,
S
P.s. No photo cause I can't figure out how to load it from my ipad. And because I look like shit.
Sunday, January 11, 2015
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I'm also hooked up to ... an oxygen monitor on my pointer finger, so I can only type with my middle finger. But I'm not flipping anyone off at all."
HA HA HA -- Don't ever give-up your brilliant sense of humor!
The best reason ever for not being able to type much! Chemo is good. Chemo kills MS. We like chemo... now repeat hourly.
This shows that in a way the hardest part of hell is the anticipation of that hell. The next few days may be brutal, yes, but you'll be inside the pain and suffering, you'll BE the pain in a sense, and your mind will be somewhere else. Not in fear and dread, which are horrible places to live, no thought, just being. And then it'll be over, and after weeks and months you'll hardly remember anything except that you made it through and triumphed and ended up with something wonderful. (It just hit me how much like childbirth the experience is, albeit an excruciatingly drawn out childbirth.)
So a few days of suffering, you can do that. Every day brings you closer to the end and closer to home and your family, and closer to the rest of your life without suffering. How wonderful is that?
Susannah, I am lighting my little glassybaby candle and saying a prayer for you and sending you positive energy and hugs. And hugs to your beautiful family and your darling dad!
sending you love
Checking on you mama! Sending so much love and strong thoughts to you. You got this!
Xoxoxoxoxox,
M
We are in this with you! XO
Thinking of you & sending sunny vibes & gulf breezes from Florida!! You are braver than you know.
Hope you are ok! I don't like the radio silence!
Sending well wishes, prayers, and strength to you via the collective brain waves of all of your devoted readers!
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