Friday, October 1, 2010

XOXO

I was 11 and just wanted to do something. Not that I knew what, really, just something, ya' know? Toes tracing hatch marks on the sidewalk. The boys--all of them shorter than I was with their thin, tanned necks. I think I wanted to touch their hair maybe, lace my fingers between theirs, ride my bike super fast hard down the hill on the precipice of possibility. At night I would slip onto my belly in the bathtub and make out with the cold cast iron sides.
Yesterday when I picked up Zoey from school her teacher told me that there had been a bit of an issue. *wink* *wink* ha ha, and it was, really. They are only 4. Apparently a boy named T loves Zoey and wants to marry her and I can't say I blame him. (I want to marry her, too.) So he followed her around and wouldn't stop kissing her, on the mouth, the shoulder, her head, hair, back. When the teacher told him to stop he said he couldn't, that it was just something he needed to do. (Again, I know the feeling.)

Later Zoey said she does not want to marry anyone anymore. That T's mouth was slimy. Part of me wanted to tell her that it won't always be. That someday the world will narrow down to mouths, everything lips, two tongues and the sweet salted plum of somebody else's secrets. But I didn't. Instead I just smiled, my throat thick with strawberry milk. Hands black with newsprint and back page memories. The smell of grass and how on a hot day you can actually taste it.

Photography from here.

12 comments:

Gini & Tonic said...

Beautiful! This has to be some of your best yet.

A Perfect Gray said...

beautiful...

Jules said...

A+

Oh Brother! said...

Yesterday when I was talking to Zoey, she told me a boy kissed her too many times.

I love that, too many. How many is too many? But, then I had to put my Uncle Andy hat on and ask her if she asked him to stop... uh, yep. Dude got busted!

Well, no means no... even when its cute :)

Hard not to laugh when you just KNOW you need to be the adult!

Love,

bro

amanda said...

I love this. So sweet, and raw and true.

anita @ a dreamer's den said...

i love this.
i love this so much.

shannon said...

Beautiful.

meinkc said...

...this is so beautiful and true. :)

Jane in Ohio said...

Eloquent, beautiful, true!

Ciara Obscura said...

Yay for this post... Yay!
The best snippet of a read for a Sunday morning.

Misplaced Country Girl said...

So sweet!

Anonymous said...

You kill me with your words girl.