Monday, January 20, 2014

Cartoon Eyes

Sit down, let me tell you a story. Once upon a time I had nothing to say. And then it was New Year's Eve and I got throw up sick and listened to the fireworks at midnight with my head in the toilet. I tried not to feel too sorry for myself or think it meant something. Not everything has to mean something, I said to myself. (I had eaten pizza earlier that night and my thoughts tasted like sausage and onion.) And then it was New Year's Day, and then January 2nd. The 3rd. Still nothing meant anything, and I had nothing to say. So I didn't. I just kind of did this...
I went to a few dress up parties and read a really good book. I started binge-watching Nurse Jackie. I bought a lighted marquee om sign for my living room because, well, I don't know. It never rained once during that time, and I thought, I should update my blog, I haven't written anything, but I didn't. And then it was mid-January and we are officially in a drought. Yesterday was my mom's birthday and I fully intended to volunteer somewhere in her memory, but it felt more right to go shopping instead, to buy myself something I shouldn't spend money on. Which is how I ended up buying leather pants, or more specifically leather-coated denim pants, but whatever. My mom would approve which didn't keep me from feeling sad, but I'm thinking leather pants don't keep anyone from feeling sad. That's not their strong suit.

But there is this. We got a new kitten. Meet Chachi (nicknames so far: Chach, Cheech, Chicharone, Chachicha, Chachi in Charge.) I picked him up 2 days ago. I can't believe I haven't eaten him up yet, he is so delicious.
Before he fell in love with me.
After he fell in love with me.
Loving my babies.
I still intend on volunteering somewhere, and I still don't really have anything to say except I guess I hope it rains soon, and I am lucky. Though it doesn't mean anything, I'm going to write anyway.
xo,
S

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kindred spirits you and me. Binging on Nurse Jackie as well.

Molly said...

That is a gorgeous kitty! Happy new year my dear, may 2014 be just that. Happy.

Anonymous said...

Whatever it takes to find your new normal, Sweet Susannah.

Anonymous said...

Whatever it takes to find your new normal, Sweet Susannah.

sugaralex said...

You will rock the shiznit out of those coated leather denim pants. (Oh, and you should work in fashion retail.) Love you.

Anonymous said...

my dog's name is frannie and we call her chicharon all the time.

no real meaning to that comment, other than to say: i like your style.

xxx

Adriene said...

And all of a sudden you will have words to write. Meanwhile just be and dont let Chachi scratch your leather jeans.

Maggie May said...

Well beautiful lady, I came here and read and read and I am so deeply sorry you lost your mom. Your amazing mom. I mean, just from the small introductions here, I can only imagine what fullness she was to actually know. I am going to link your 'she's gone' in my People IN Your Neighborhood this weekend, because it moved me so much. It's so beautiful, so sad, so human, so all of us at some point, but with your singular and irreplaceable loss.

Your cat is amazing.

Gretchen said...

I'm glad you're writing.

And maybe it's because we have two dogs, and I'm not that knowledgable about cats, but Chachi looks like he has some kind of lynx-ish wildcat look about him. Like he's not 100% housecat. Like cats in hieroglyphics. Oh, hell. I don't know. It's a good thing. He's special.

Sharon M said...

Awww, what a pretty kitty! Those ears!

Sarah said...

He is beautiful.

Sarah said...

He is beautiful.

Anonymous said...

That is one adorby little kitten you all have there. Happier times are ahead. The rain started.
~ old neighbor Kirsten