Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Luche Libre

I had a headache. The kind that starts or ends in your neck like a root twisted part of something bigger; I admit that all I had eaten that day was chocolate. DoraDiegoDoraDiego, come on vamanos! Everybody let's go! Stupid fucking tiny high heels all over the carpet pink like plastic thorns. Why do they even give Barbie shoes to wear if she can't keep them on for more than a minute anyway? The same question over and over and over again, I can't remember what it was. Can I wear my bathing suit maybe, or I want to color on my face, more of a statement but the answer the same: no. Did you hear what I said? What did I say? No, no, nonono, a word which even on paper looks a little bit unfinished.Later I apologized. After I had a glass of water and felt like a total asshole. I love you, I said, do you hear me? The difference this time that I took her face in my hands and spoke softly. I want you to know that I love you even when I am mad. I love you when you are laughing, when you are snoring, I love you when you look beautiful in a princess dress and when you look like a maniac Mexican wrestler in your mask with the dried up glue where once there was glitter. I love you even when you are not so sure that you love me. And she smiled and held up three fingers to ask if she could have two pink bunny Peeps. I said no.

Later still she followed me into the bathroom and hugged my knees as I sat down. Mama, she said looking up at me, I love you even when you poop.

I know, I said, exactly, and kissed the top of her head.

22 comments:

AppleTree said...

I haven't pooped alone in 5 years either.

Shannon said...

And that is love.

Cindy said...

Awww. Yay for this post. I want to hug you and Z and my little guy in a big group hug. (But not while you are pooping.)

xo

Anonymous said...

I'm lurking no more...love this.

Paige said...

she is the cutest thing ever. and so funny in the realest sense.

Jen said...

That is the sweetest thing ever.

Richie Designs said...

that was SO CUTE

can I have three pink bunny peeps? I promise to be good

leigh said...

love. love. love.

ZDub said...

And Zoey for the win.

A Perfect Gray said...

thank you...

Anita Davis said...

*love* this post. i'll try to remember to grab my boys' faces and tell them that i love them even when they're not sure they love me. thanks for the reminder.

Robin said...

so sweet!

thevioletpear said...

Delurking (hate that word) to say I love reading your writing! it is hilarious and touching and true! my 4 year old son walked in on me in the bathroom with my husband's cel phone and said "smile mama!" click. good thing there is a delete button and I got to it before he was able to somehow send the picture.

boops said...

you guys should have your own show...zoey and me

JennyA said...

brilliant. kids get it!

Solar Powered said...

I love your blog, love this post. Keep on keepin on keepin it real.

topsyturvydays said...

Great post. Why can't kids understand no? It's a fight I have everyday.

Petunia Face said...

To all of you with your sweet comments--I love you all when I poop, too.

Richie--You can totally have all the pink bunny peeps. I am not a fan. I don't even think Zoey likes them; she just feels obligated because they are pink and they are bunnies.

xo,
S

Sadie said...

That is adorable and what makes all of our hard work as Mommies SOOO worth it.

What a cutie!

Sadie at heyMamas

erica@ moth design+luxe life said...

I got about 3 hours sleep last night... as has been the case for the last 3-4 weeks. My little man decided it prudent to compound teething in to a whopping 10 teeth at once. I'm ready to revert to his age and bite someone myself.
Just wanted to say I stumbled across you here and truly laughed out loud. Awesome. Thanks and I think I'll stick around awhile! Erica

sherri said...

Fantastic post. I think I say "what did I just say?!?" far too often. I try to always sit down and have the "even when you take a dump I love you" talk as often as they will listen. That picture of your munchkin is too much.

Ciara Obscura said...

Damn that was funny... and achingly touching, of course.
Your wit is freakin' incredibly awesome.
I'm a newcomer to this blog- love it.
Be well,
Cath